had i known….omg. the revolting awakening of my same sex attraction. the crush on a best friend and nothing was ever the same again. it was 1985 and i was turning 13.

everything changed then. i became awkward around my male friends; whether i was attracted to them or not. it was awful.

then the lust began. lusting after my boys. imagining us doing unimaginable stuff.

it was 8th grade and it was 1985 and it was you…hubert hawkins. scottie page. vanilla & chocolate. oh man….i remember you two. there were rumors…you were the cutest guys in the whole school.

of course i was the outcast so all i could do was lust from afar. you prolly never even noticed me.