JNez@thirtydaes.2010

according to wikipedia, i share a december 30 birthdate with an interesting array of notable people, including several superstar athletes.  so, today, everyone gets to say happy birthday to:

• tiger woods
• lebron james
• sandy koufax (hall of fame baseball player)
  
• kenyon martin (nba player)
  
• laila ali
  
• ben johnson (gold medal olympic runner)
• kerry collins (football player)
• a.j. pierzynski (white sox baseball player)

wow, remarkable. that’s a hefty list of accomplished competitors right there. other celebrities born on december 30 include:

• matt lauer
• meredith viera
  
• sheryl lee ralph (actress)
• tyrese (actor/model/r&b singer)
  
• sean hannity (radio/cable talk show host)
• jay kay (of jamiroquai)
• tracy ullman
• bo diddley
• heidi fleiss (madam)
• leon jackson (british x-factor season 4 winner)
• davy jones (of the monkees)
• michael nesmith (of the monkees)
  
• rudyard kipling (author)
  
• meredith monroe (dawson’s creek actress)

wonder if my name will someday join those ranks   found some more december 30 birthdays/events.  have you googled your birthdate yet?

wow you guys are great. thanks for expressing your love and concern in the comments. it’s because of the karma that you send that the incident is now a distant memory. a lesson learned, still, but a distant memory. the iphone has been replaced (i have the best ex ever); for reasons selfish & unselfish, i’ve decided not to press charges; we’ll let karma deal with eddie. all i can say when i read over the account of what happened is “man…what was i thinking??”

truth is i don’t know what i was thinking because my thinking was clouded by weed, pills & alcohol. what i’ve been avoiding has steadily grown unwieldy: i drink too goddamn much. shit. i need to check that. but not now. it’s the holidays, new years eve & my birthday week, for goodness sake. i’m supposed to party!!!

i promise i’ll address all of this with the attention & priority it deserves once 2010 hits. i have big plans for 2010 that these holiday binges have nothing on.

thanks again for your karma, readers. it’s been said: god protects babies & fools. i haven’t been a baby for 37 years but man i’ve probably been a fool for the last 22…

i’m really not into it. didn’t put up a tree, nothing. barely exchanged gifts even. shame on me. but i just wasn’t with it…goodness. everything is christmas, gifts, cheer, family. all of that isn’t happening for all of us. some of us are really down this holiday and just want it to be over. i can’t ever remember looking forward to january as much as i am now.

still, i promised to prepare a christmas dinner and that’s what i’m doing. got a beautiful turkey i named henny as i was massaging and seasoning it lol. he’s in the fridge now, waiting for 5:00 am when i get up and put him in the oven to bake. poor guy. he’s ok with it though lol.

ahhh…what else is on the menu…oh yeah, fresh collard greens. they’re already seasoned and cooking on the stovetop along with the turkey neck. oh the neck yields an excellent broth when boiled with seasoned water. it must be cooked on low overnight though. the broth can be used for gravy but the meat…that will be tender and fall off the bones. chop it up and simmer the meat in a pan with celery, green peppers & onions. there’s the dressing for the stuffing lol.

so yep…i’m here…alone. the girls are with their mom at grandma’s house. they have a christmas eve dinner and celebration. i pick up the girls tomorrow evening and we’ll have our dinner & celebration. hah! with no tree. and one present! lol these kids are expensive. one thing now…$150 is the limit per item lol.

hope you have a merry xmas or whatever we’re supposed to feel today.

what does it mean to dream 

of oral sex with your father

 nearly every night my dad's in

 my dreams and we are 

 battling as adults

hand to hand

 or i am younger and

 we grow intimate, sexually

is it my father i'm dreaming  

 these dreams are intensely arousing 

still of course they're disturbing

 beside what's evident

how would you interpret them

the stolis & pineapple juice

the rolled weed for later use

blew off your boy so you could individually consume

so when the haze engulfs you

you are now free to be

happily unhappy

II

spend the rest of the evening

downloading entire cd’s

Mariah’s whole discography

now imported into your itunes library

yes you have all you’ll ever need

but you’re still happily unhappy

III

a certain thrill in the chase

as you stare frozen in place

427 porn ads stare back from the web page

well this is sex safely

so for a little while its satisfying

and i’m happily unhappy

IV

so fresh and so clean

flossing hard to be seen

still i silently scream

look at me look at me

but no one’s listening

so forever i’ll be

happily unhappy

going through my contacts list

wondering who the fuck is this

how’d your name get in my shit

we fucked around september sixth?

man i was drunk and out of it

no wonder i don’t remember it

you must’ve had a butchered dick

and i don’t like em foreskin less

swapping info is homo etiquette

but now i’m getting rid of it