JNez@thirtydaes.2010

*this post is explicit. reader discretion is strongly advised.

been feeling sorry for myself lately like woe is me

cause I can’t have these attractive latino boyz i see

enticing me with skinny jeans down to their knees

showing off their sweaty draws all in front of me

trynna walk & ignore them but it’s making me weak

poor me i’m so horny and it’s making me weep

they keep depositing seeds in my keen memory

many images before me i’m capturing digitally

they cum in handy for a masturbation fantasy

i’m forlorn & obscene so i’m left imagining…

a moist furry ass for my mouth to explore deeply

and salty brown nuts i’ll be teabagging greedily

a thick uncut dick intensely throbbing & leaking

a tongue hidden in foreskin to enjoy all your semen

yeah i’m caught up in thoughts of you secretly

you prolly wouldn’t assume this by looking at me

but i’m lusting discreetly so fellas pull up your jeans please

it’s wrong to show off to the lonely and needy

rabid and angry cause i’ve only been dreaming

damn i’m trynna eat see but your ass is just teasing

so young thug in front of me pull up your jeans please

i’m liable to touch you & give that fat ass a squeeze

i warned you; i’m up on you but i don’t see you stopping me

you wanted me all along see; turn around put your mouth on me

i wanna bend a light skinned n***a in half

preferably one with a hairy lower back

dip my chocolate stick in a vanilla bath

watch this 8 1/2 penetrate his ass

but before i do that

need my tongue in his crack

and his nuts over my eyeglasses

while i caress him with my hands

overjoyed cause his foreskin’s intact

so now i get to help it retract

let my tongue roll it back

get on top throw it back

right before i flip him over

put his ankles on my shoulders

now all twelve inches stand exposed

gripped in my fist like a subway pole

gimme a kiss on my lips and let go

i wanna watch while you explode

feel you tightening your hole

almost lost my control

damn my n***a take it slow

nearly spilled all my load

before i finished this poem

ahhh…i’m done let it flow

although twelve times two is twenty 4

i’m drunk & wanted to add two more

my 20 year reunion is looming intimidatingly

got me nervous like i’m running out of weed

now that i’m nothing what will they all think

yep it’s the faggoty kid & he’s taken to drink

i hope all the popular girls have gotten fat & smoke crack

i hope all the popular guys have left their wives & are bi

i hope all your kids have given you shit for being a hypocrite

i hope when we reunite you apologize cause i forgive

andrew garcia was sent packing

man american idol is slacking

tell me andrew what happened

you were ahead but collapsed

under those enormous eyeglasses

oh how i wanted to have him

watch his foreskin retracting

tell me andrew what happened

i won’t watch till you come back

This was the scene this past weekend during a final four game for the ncaa championship. DaSean Butler, a popular player for West Virgina, lay writhing on the court floor in agony after a serious knee injury. His coach, Bob Huggins, took to his knees to comfort the player, first cradling him in his arms & then caressing his face and offering soothing words as Butler cried out in pain. The two were so close that their noses touched at one point.  this was a spontaneous display of fatherly affection that both touched and discomforted the huge audience that witnessed it.

twitter was first to react; bob huggins became a trending topic within minutes: most of the tweets were expressing shock & disbelief at having witnessed such an intimate moment. many agreed that the fatherly cradle & caress & physical closeness between coach and player was homoerotic and that’s what caused the discomfort. we are not accustomed to seeing men offering that type of consolation to other men. add to that bob huggins’ reputation as a win-first coach prone to outbursts & tirades against his players and then the image of this burly white man hovering on his knees astride a bawling young black man, using his body and his words to soothe as a father would a young child.

i was touched by the scene, so much so, that it got me wondering what it would have felt like to have that intimate comfort with another man without any sexual or erotic feelings. i’m not the only one, i’m sure. many young men who have never had intimacy with a father in that way still develop a healthy sexuality…why have others of us not?

what do you think about coach huggins public display of affection?

time’s up fella

death is coming to getcha

grab something to take witcha

you knew i was coming now didntcha

did your best with what i sentcha

a great father i gotta commend ya

but fatherhood should be understood

you ain’t special for doing what you should

so mr. anywho what can i do for you

did you worship as you were told to

am i what you imagined or even close to

you know your d.o.d. but you’re not supposed to

and so the next 20 years you’d better devote to

finishing off all your demons

withering, feeble and weakened

maintain your disease treatment

give up smoking & drinking

has jnez really picked his death date

i’ll be 57 will i really die that day

3.30.30 r.i.p jnez@thirtydaes