bi single dad laments/wry dark adult content

dammit i should have known

you weren’t a gift but a loan

while my interest has grown

a lack of interest you’ve shown

an offer to rent but not own

and only to have and not hold

but it’s too late i can’t let go

this despair is killing me slow

i fell deep & my mood is low

my underpinnings lay exposed

frostbitten; i’m dying out here in the cold

will anyone miss me like this winter’s snow

precious things are to have and not to hold

will anyone miss me if i choose now to go

… and now it’s january 10 2012. 14 years ago, we lost you, grandma; but i still feel you as if it’s only been 14 minutes. i ache for you & i’ll never let go of you; your great granddaughters have yet to meet you but know & love you as i do. i know you’re resting and i hope the way we’ve remembered you has honored & brought you peace.

this after party is popping

the asian DJ is hot and

i’m LMFAO party rocking

at the bar taking shots and

sneaking peeks at his crotch

i need a saddle for my cock

so he can ride it non stop

all 9 inches to the top

but then bareback feels better

penetration with no barrier

so tight but he’s moist already

i’m on my knees like a beggar

watching his cockhead get redder

and his foreskin get wetter

like a worn turtleneck sweater

damp & warm to the touch

damn I want him so much

but I’m stuck with this crush

and so all alone in love

so DJ turn this up

synthetic weed got me buzzed

you’re in my system like a bug

‘oh baby
you
are in my system
I just want you to know that
ohh ohh
you are
in my system
got me burning, burning baby’

oooooo

all this absolut & apple juice

synthetic weed & a balmy outdoor breeze

has me out here tweaking & now i believe

i can attract better than what’s been offered to me

sipping & considering as you walked by me

seems i conjured you up like a genie

then almost immediately

we were joined like siamese

boy i enjoyed it like a wet dream

before you dissolved like houdini

and now

it’s already past an hour

since our encounter

and i want you some more

i still smell you in my palm

but then the fragrance is gone

oh how i really wish

i could suck my own dick

for another taste of your lips

hey young DJ i’m so gone

wherefore aren’t thou alone

why can’t we get it on

still…like a richard marx song

‘wherever you go

whatever you do

i will be right here waiting for you’

found your twitter but i’m trying not to follow

disappointed but i’m trying hard not to wallow

extraordinary head & i’m dying for another swallow

thought i owned it but in hindsight i only borrowed

i fell so deeply and now i’m crying out in sorrow

i need a sequel like the day after tomorrow

bought a red solo cup

immediately filled it up

with tanqueray & 7up

tipped it back drank it up

paused to burp & hiccup

then i was…

reminded of

just how good it was

making out in your truck

fogging the windows up

erect & moist to the touch

till we’d both erupt

now you’re my new crush

hope there’s seconds for us

but no it’s just my luck

i’m all alone again in love

so now all i really want

is to keep filling  up

this red solo cup